Can't stop munching!

Since the US trip, I've lost motivation to lose weight... it's like, every food I look at, I must have! Haiyooo... it worries me this behaviour... but to my surprise, I don't feel bloated at all! I mean, before, if I ate like a pig, there's this alarming feeling that woke me up and reminded me to get back on track, everytime. Hmm, I do exercise, but not watching what I eat now, doesn't really help... well ok, juri said it's not that bad - like if I hadn't done the exercise, my weight gain wud've been doubled by now...

anyhow, this does not change the fact that I have gained more than I anticipated (yup, i had a buffer for holiday weight that has now spilled over..) What's even worse now, I've lost my will to lose weight!!! ok, don't get 'jun, ok dah tu' yet people, coz I'm no where close to my ideal weight now, which is 55... so, I need to be there and the plan is that, i would allow myself to go back and forth between 60-55kg... then, only i should be happy... oo wait, if I can get between 50 - 55, that would be the best! but that's the stretch target laa...

so, after thinking for a while, I kinda figure out why I've been off track now...

1) I kept eating like I'm still on holiday - wakey wakey jun!!

2) This work project thing that I'm heading rite now is not helping at all - I always had to eat, either during meeting breaks, lunch, tea... we are so well fed, you know - just to get the brain going... it's like drug - nobody forced me to take it, but i just had to 're-fuel'...

3) There's no target date anymore, like Wedding Dek A ke, Wedding Man ke etc... now, my only target is the November Shutdown, which, the more I think of it, the more I feel like eating!!!!!!!!

So now.... the damage control plan....

1) Haruslah displin... no snacking... take only the 3 meals... with replacement for 2 meals like Herbalife dulu... hmm, I found out that protein shake is like a staple in the states now... hmm, kat Walmart pun jual kan, no wonder laa... pastu, like what i've seen in Glee and other chick flick movies, they have it every morning... so, selamat tinggal sekejap ye nasi lemak... i need to start my protein shake back...

2) Be stronger to say no. If it's not part of the meal plan, just admit that I need to diet.. base on my own experience, people would understand sooner or later... just bersabar dengan temptation and socialize while other people have their bite... I'll grow on it and would not notice it pun nanti!!

3) Target - so Juri has kinda make a deal that a next LV may be mine if I achieve the stretch target... hmmm... interesting..... but, it's hard!!!!!!!!! ok2, let's see the glass half full now aeh? I need to kick out all the negativity now... enough of 'em during work!!

So, good luck me... LV, here I come!!!!